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Name: Jessica
Birthday: 11/26/1981
Gender: Female
Interests: my two adorable puppies Zeus and Bailey, singing (maybe one of these days I might actually try out for America Idol), sports of all kinds, and apparently school since I can't seem to get too far away from it! I also love my wonderful friends and family who are really great to lean on in tough times even though they live a couple of hours away!
Expertise: My expertise lies in the science/math fields! I was in pharmacy school, but have recently changed my mind and have decided upon teaching high school biology! I guess as they all say...those who can't, teach!
Occupation: Student
Industry: Education/Research
Message: message me
AIM:  babrat23
Member Since:
4/3/2005
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| ok well at least it was last week! i absolutely loved all of the snow by the way! loved it!!!! so here it is...i had the most amazing date last night! it wasn't much because it was here in stillwater (he lives in claremore so he drove here) but it was great! we had dinner at Joseppi'swhere the first people i see when we walk in the front door are josh's family! (if you don't know who josh is, he's my ex that lives in north carolina) well then we get seated and we're having a great time and i look up and see Sam (if you don't know who Sam is, then it's not important) so that was dinner! and then we decided to go bowling and we played three games and apparently the bowling gods were smiling upon me last night because i kicked his butt all three times. anyways....long story short....I have a great time and I hope to see him again soon! enough of this now....i must go study!
Peace!!!
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| I am now officially single for the first time in.....well since I started dating when I was 15. I am not dating a single person and let me just say that I don't like it. It's really weird! I don't rely upon others for my happiness, but being around the opposite sex does make me kinda happy! I had been dating this one guy recently, and well....he ended things with me because he just wasn't ready for a committment. Now I would like to say that at least he was honest. It took him about a week or two to be honest, but at least he was! Now here's my question...is he actually being honest? He told me that I'm wonderful, and blah blah blah, but he just realized that he's not ready to have a girl friend and to have to start dedicating his time to that. Then he said, "but who knows...i might change my mind tomorrow, but this is how I feel right now!" I can respect that. It's nice when people are actually upfront and tell you the truth even if it sucks...so do you all agree? was he being honest? or was that just one of those "guy" lines that they use to get out of bad situations? "it's not you, it's me..." I'm fine with it either way...I'm just curious! I mean here i am almost 25 years old and still living in a college town, and completely single with no prospects. am i doing something wrong? Hell...three years ago I thought that i was getting married before my friends and they've been married over two years now so that shows you how wrong i was there! but that's life, right? there's nothing that i can do about this right now so i'm not going to stress! ok...here's something new that i desperately need advice on xanga readers...the ex is back. you know...the infamous ex-boyfriend that broke my heart into a million tiny pieces? yeah well...he's back and he's trying to right his wrongs. which to be honest with you is pretty nice. I waited several years for an apology and i finally got a sincere one! and it felt good! but here's the kicker...he's being nicer to me than i really ever remember him being. he's being the man that i wanted him to be and knew he could be three years ago! it makes me want to forget all of the bad that he put me through where all is forgiven and just pick up where we left off when we were happy....but when was that exactly!? and that gets me depressed all over again! I'm not going back to therapy because of him! i finally got to the point where i was rarely thinking about him and then he's back and occupying my thoughts again! obviously there was something good there at some point because...hell....i was with him for four and a half years! so i'll never forget him or the love that i had for him, but he shouldn't be in my life anymore should he? he shouldn't complicate things anymore than he already has, should he? we can talk on occasion, but we shouldn't hang out anymore....right? everything is telling me to get away, but then i see how hard he's trying and how long i wanted that and that makes me do a U-turn....please Xanga gods....give me some answers!!! I'm at a loss.... Peace!!! | | |
| i have no free time! I don't have time to see my friends, i don't have time to do what i want to do...but when, for some miraculous reason i do have the time, i'm so tired i'm not capable of doing anything!! it sucks! ok...so as my friends have been so nice to point out lately, i apparently have been dating a large variety of people! what's wrong with that? i'm having fun, right? i mean i didn't have fun for so long, so i have to make up for it now! so here's the question of the day....i have recently (with in the last year) dated two guys that have treated me wonderfully! no complaints! but i ended it with both of them...am i scared to get serious again? it took me so long to heal and i definitely don't want to go through that again! i mean who would? but as soon as i've dated someone that hasn't treated me well i end it with them immediately!!! so i have learned from past mistakes! i just realized the other day that i'm going to graduate soon and it's freaking me out! i have been doing this school thing for sooooo long and i've changed majors sooo many times and now i'm freaked cause i'm finally going to graduate with one major and what if i get out there and hate it? i'm sure as hell not going to tell any of you cause you've made fun of me everytime i've changed my major! so if i get out into the real world and decide that i hate teaching...and then all of a sudden move away, it is because i have decided to get back to school and get a different degree and don't want any of you to know about it! so if i move away, it's your fault! it all makes sense now!!!! i always change my mind and have a hard time making decisions because i treat every decision as something similar to that of life or death! maybe that's my problem! it's not life or death! but i feel like if i make a bad decision i'm wasting a part of my life on that bad decision! if i pick the movie and it sucks, then i just wasted two hours of my life as well as yours! that's a big deal!! i also don't want to settle! why waste away your life only being somewhat happy when you have the option of loving your life? you shouldn't hate going to work the majority of the time! you should look forward to gooing to work! you shouldn't question the person you're coming home to! you smile at the possibility of getting to see that person and look forward to the time that you spend together! oh by the way, that's how it should be with your friends also! everyone have a great weekend!!!! i know i will! Peace!!! | | |
| this is a copy from a facebook message that i just sent a friend! i would like some feedback! my track record is now short because i know what i want now, and i'm not going to waste my time screwing around with someone that isn't giving me what i want....now i may need to rethink this policy of mine because it is kinda biting me in the butt. unless this is how dating works. here are some questions that i have that maybe you can answer:
if you date someone and have a great time with them, but they don't meet one of your "qualifications" should you get rid of them because that's a pretty important thing or should you keep them around cause you have a good time with them and at this point in your life, that's all you're really looking for?
does dating consist of going on a lot of first dates?
have i just been lucky cause most of the guys that i have dated have kinda turned into a relationship?
if you date someone and at the time they don't meet your "qualifications" and you get rid of them, but later on find out that they do meet your "qualifications" should you try to get them back or just forget about it cause you've already gotten rid of them once?
and last one: should you go out with a guy that your friend is trying to se you up with as a blind date? Is it ever a good idea?
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| These past couple of days have not been so good....my eyes are so puffy i can barely see out! I'm sick of crying.....i don't like making people cry....and for goodness sake when did life have to become so complicated? I taught my labs yesterday and let me just say that it is incredibly reassuring to have 24 pairs of eyes looking at you with this look basically saying "What the F*** are you talking about?" yeah....real confidence booster
well i need to head off to good 'ol genetics now, but for those of you interested, I got a new cell phone. I just don't have it because my mom just got it for me yesterday and it's in tulsa, but the number is the same number that i've had for the past couple years! Sprint was nice and let me transfer my number! Hope everyone's having a great week and i'll try to call you if i ever find a way to get ahold of my mom so i can get the phone....interesting...
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